Hmmm. I love laying in bed in the morning and letting my mind wander while Tim is sleeping. I honestly think that this period of the day is when I am actually able to exercise my mind the most and just relieve some of the tension that is my life. Most of the time, I consider how lucky I am to be married to such a wonderful man, to see different parts of the country, to have a sense of stability, to be blessed with such wonderful health, and to have found such amazing friends. For some reason, this morning was different. As I layed in bed, I began to feel a sense of void in my life. Something is missing and I just can't figure it out. I have so much to be thankful for yet, it doesn't seem enough. I know that I am not happy with my current employment situation but I don't think that my job is the only thing that is making me feel unfulfilled. And, to be honest, that is my biggest fear. I am afraid of dying knowing that I do not feel complete. I am afraid of feeling like I somehow cheated myself of new experiences or limited my own opportunities. I just wish that I knew what it was that I am yearning for. Only then, can I begin to fix my situation.
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